"For I have been made new"

 

One year and one week ago, one of my best friends { Nate Last } was baptized into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  This was one of most amazing experiences I have ever witnessed.  

Last night we were listening to Owl City, when the song "Meteor Shower" came on.  He said that he heard this song for the first time a few days before he was baptized--and that he felt like it was about him.  

I had never heard this song before.  

So we listened to it...and I bawled as Nate sang out the words:

I can finally see 

that You're right there beside me

I am not my own, 

for I have been made new

Please don't let me go, 

I desperately need You

I am not my own, 

for I have been made new 

Please don't let me go, 

I desperately need You

 .........

The song is only 2:14 long, 

but it was one of the best 2 minutes and 14 seconds of my life!

If you haven't heard it...

{ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VqH470Hdn4Q }

go take 2 minutes and listen to it.

Try and imagine someone who has finally found what he has been missing/looking for.

Think of the excitement!

Think of the peace!

Think of the hope!

...then try not to cry...

:)

I love you Nate! 

I have ALWAYS looked up to you.  You are the most loving and accepting person I have ever met, and HANDS DOWN the HAPPIEST person I know!!! :)  I love that you idolize my dad's mustache, and are well on your way to having one just like it! ;)  You are one of the most talented people I know!  I am amazed by your creativity and skills!!  You have the BRIGHTEST future ahead of you!  I can't wait to see where life takes you!  Nate, you have brought so much life and happiness into my life!  I am so grateful to have you as my friend!! 

Too true...

"A Little Bit Stronger"

By: Sara Evans

I heard this song a little while back...and I can't get it off my mind.  

This song has helped me realize that 

I am not the only one who has felt this way...

Sometimes we feel like our suffering is so unique and no one understands.

And then reality slaps us in the face and we realize how "normal" we really are.

It's kind of a good feeling!

The lyrics to this song mean so much to me.

It's like she read my journal before she wrote it! haha

So...this is how my heart is kind of feeling at the moment

{...and for the past few months...}

Woke up late today,
And I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brushed my teeth anyway.
I got dressed through the mess,
And put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.

Riding in the car to work,
And I'm trying to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio,
Stupid song made me think of you.
I listened to it for a minute,
But then I changed it.
I'm getting a little bit stronger,
Just a little bit stronger.

And I'm done hoping we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels
Spinning my wheels,
Letting you drag my heart around.
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.

It doesn't happen overnight,
But you turn around and a months gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you an hour, or a second, or another minute longer.
I'm busy getting stronger.

And I'm done hoping we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels
Spinning my wheels,
Letting you drag my heart around.
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you baby,
Better off without you baby,
How does it feel without me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby.

And I'm done hoping we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels
Spinning my wheels,
Letting you drag my heart around.
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.

I get a little bit stronger.
Just a little bit stronger.
Little bit, little bit, little bit stronger.
Get a little bit stronger.

 Sometimes I think I waste too much time 

thinking about the past and wishing, hoping, thinking, and praying

that I would've done things differently.

But I know...

Everything happens for a reason! 

The way things happened like they did...

was for a reason.

...I'm getting along...

...I'm better off...

  I know I am gonna be okay,

even on my weakest days.

{...I wish I didn't have those darn weak days...} 

But I know, through all of this,

I am getting

{ just a little bit }

...stronger...